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Haih, going back to penang...finally, for good?Who knows..will pick my fights properly now. Life is full of possibilities and I will have to grab them as they come along..Till then. I will be on a hiatus as there are no internet connections in my humble abode in penang..

Fallen Angel

Life, has taken a turn for the worse for me. Got ditched last minute for my RA job, thesis just finally completed after a long delay which wasnt my fault, binding it cost 73.90, and alas, my car radiator leaked....WHY am I punished on all fronts? WHY?

the bigger you are, the harder you fall

All my good work for the past year has been unraveled by my friend in a week. My marketing team managed to get 10K for the stupid college dinner. It was a great achievement considering the fact that for all the previous years, they got less than 1K...so what did that idiot do, well..he came up with a fake budget..and after a lot of scrutinizing by the college administration, we we're short of 7K, either that idiot telan the money or some hanky panky is going on...Haih, sad..and he spent 1.2 K on a stupid black coloured steps with lights..which was so small that it was negligible. haih, pathetic, and the college principal thinks i had a part in it..and is reconsidering my fellowship.. Crap, really crap...

And then, im currently officially broke. I've left only 2 ringgit to survive; hmmm let me see.. 2 weeks... stupid air cond gas and my stupid smoking habit....haih...I'm just plain sad.

I really need help financially, if anyone can contribute, please call me... thanks, or leave a msg..I'll try to stop smoking..I will.

Hmm, if pigs can fly

Haih, when u need to settle for a nett of 500 instead of 1200. You know that things will take a turn for the bad. But what intrigues me is the fact that i need to pay for lots of stuff nowadays. My petrol cost me on average 45 per week. My cigarettes; yes i still smoke cos around 6 per day.. Food has been on average 500 bucks per month. My handphone bills are costing aroung 80 per month. So basically im set back, well RM 950 per month. and getting 500 a month wont be able to help me out.

Plus its exam season which equates to more supper, more cigarettes and more petrol. I'm actually swamped now with keeping my finances in check that i've lost the drive and the mood to study at all. I've been watching season 1 to season 10 of friends at least 3 times already...and i haven't started studying on the paper for this coming monday. sad huh.

Hmm, trying very hard to patch things up with my gf, who by the way. came all the way to UKM to meet me on the 29th. I didnt do much to impress her, but i did in a certain way, hahaha.

My dad is scheduled for surgery again on the 12th of may..and im worried like hell that his heart will not be able to take it. I worry about my mom who has to do everything in the house because of dad's sickness..Mom, I love you, happy mother's day. Dad stay healthy for your sake.

So thats about it, im sick and need to correct my thesis as soon as possible..Or ya, and binding the copies will set me back another 90..If only a pig like me could fly..

Fallacy of Men

Hmm, men are hypocrites to a certain extent. On the topic that was brought up by Raja Petra on the Ugly Malaysian, i see some truths in it. When it comes to election we identify ourselves as Malaysian..once the elections are over, we'll the ugly side of Malaysians come out...Racism..Will this ever end? Will we see a woman and non-Muslim Prime Minister? We'll have to wait...how long i don't know.

Hypocrites...well you'll either one or you're not. But chances are most people are. I myself have been a hypocrite on several levels...

1. Didn't stop smoking and telling my love ones I will stop
2. Procrastinating on my thesis..and blaming others and not myself
3. Promise to go on a diet and didn't..

Well i sincerely hope that I change..honestly i despise hypocrites yet I'm becoming one..its just kinda sad.

But hey, things are looking up. I will be getting the fellow position in my college and my RA job looks most likely to happen now.Hmm, everything is going well at the moment..I just can pray that it goes well until I graduate..

God, show me the way...

New Challenges

Life has been kind to me in the recent week, ive gotten verbal approval for my RA position under my current thesis supervisor, patched up my relationship and hopefully its stronger now and will be driving in campus from April onwards..Yeah, so life has been kind to me yet again.

The challenges that i will face are daunting, im finally moving into a career albeit slowly. Maintaining a Long Distance Relationship will be much harder now, and completing my thesis which has been anything but satisfactory...

Thank god, i still have responsive friends who reacts accordingly when I need help. Thank you for being in my life, and I will always be grateful.

Debating has stalled a bit but Im involved in my college dinner, so far the marketing department that is under my supervision has done a great job and so a great burden has been lifted from my shoulders..Hopefully I can become a college fellow next semester in order to obtain free accommodation as I continue my MSc.

I miss penang, my parents and my gf but there is nothing in my power to be back home for a long a period of time. Needless to say, there has been nagging and I've gotten used to it after all this years...

I've shaved my head bald again in hopes to start afresh on things that are in my life...Life changing moments dont come that often and I sincerely pray to God that he gives me the strength to move on and come out on top...

Men react differently when they are in the eye of the storm, some are dumb with fear, others panic but some soar like eagles above the storm riding the wind..Hopefully I can be an eagle.. =)

Im back in UKM

Chinese New Year was fun this year..did everything I planned for...Happy Chinese New Year to you all